Eclipse of my Brain

There’s a good side to today … but it didn’t happen until after Friday morning was done.

Thursday evening was really hard for me. I spent the day waiting for my colleague to fulfill her financial obligations toward me so I could go to bed. She was aware that Friday was a full day for me, but didn’t care enough to even keep her phone turned on so we could complete our transaction, which takes less than five minutes. Instead of going to bed around 7:00 p.m. like I originally planned so that when I got up at 4:00 a.m. Friday I’d have a good run of sleep, I ended up not going to bed until 2:00 a.m. Friday morning for a quick nap before getting up at 4:00 a.m. anyway. It was stressful, stupid and completely avoidable. She swore it would never happen again. I believe her, but have definitely gained a harder skin with each exposure to this job.

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New Friends

A bit ago, I stopped trying to make friends in my neighborhood out of consideration for my family. It was a harsh situation.

When I got home from jail, I decided that while I wouldn’t seek out friends in my neighborhood, anyone who approached me was fair game. I have one friend here now. She talked to me first. Some things she does drive me up the wall. 🙂 She’s very sweet.

Our situation seems to be changing here. For a long time, everyone was very stilted around us. Now, everyone waves and smiles at us. A few have even begun stopping by when we’re in the yard to say hello.

Today, a young man came to me while I was mowing our lawn. He’d decided to put aside the fears our neighbors expressed about my religion (“If you piss her off, she might sick spirits on you with her witching.”) and get to know me. He was really nice.

He started the conversation about how cool it was I was using a mower that uses no electricity or gas and is good for the environment. He said that people around here think we’re really nice people, just keep to ourselves a lot. He said the fact that we’re so friendly when people talk to us actually confuses them. ::grin::

He’s very into video games and will probably approach Mr. Pearbuckle soon since they seem to have a lot in common, hobby-wise. He was very friendly and welcoming. It was a nice, completely unexpected moment in my day.